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"A heart is just like a home-for that someone special to live in. And only that someone."
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Things on my mind
Sunday, September 22, 2013 // 10:13 PM
This is just gonna be a short wordy post so yeah, you can choose not to read it if you want.
To start things off, I just wanna say that there are like so many things on my mind right now. All the worries and everything. It just freaking sucks and this post is just for me to just say everything out.
Girls, in a relationship, you definitely want what is best for the relationship right? (Obviously.) Even if it means hurting yourself. What actually makes a good relationship? Trust. The thing is, trust must be built up.
What I'm trying to say is, I totally trust you. However, there will always be things that worry me. Like for example, your girl best friend. You seem to have endless things to talk about to her. On the other hand? I feel like I have to come up with topics to talk about when I thought that this should flow naturally between couples. I just don't know what to say at times, and you won't know what to say. We go quiet, no texts from each other... It just feels horrible. I know that not talking to you isn't much of a big deal to you. However, it is to me. It's just like smoking or taking drugs. It's addictive and I can't stop. So I will try to make something up regardless of anything. And it will just die down again... It's exhausting, yet I'm doing it willingly.
Besides that, if you trust me, you would tell me what's on your mind, what's the problem. To share the burden with me. Isn't that what couples do? To talk things out, to tell the person who's being the problem here instead of bottling it all up, to talk it out. Whenever there's a problem, you don't seem to tell me anything. I just get so worried, get so anxious and all. I'd rather hear the sad truth than to hear a beautiful lie. Don't you think that this is very unfair? I want to help you, yet you don't want me to. May I know why? You push away people that may possibly care about you. It's just really heart-wrenching to know that you don't trust me with your problems.
I trust you with everything. My secrets, my feelings, my thoughts. Every single part of me, I opened up to you because I trust you. All I want is not much, but for you to share your problems with me, to let me be a part of you. Sigh.
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