I love to see people in love. It's just so sweet. May it be a crush or in a relationship, the way they look at the person they like is just amazing. The things a crush would do to attract the person they like, have a reason to wake up to everyday, looking forward to every single day they get to see them. It's just really sweet. 

Unfortunately, nothing's like a fairytale. Sometimes your crush may not like you back, sometimes they can just ignore you, ignore your messages. It really sucks. The pain you feel inside. 

Sometimes I'll just look back at all my past relationships and wonder why they didn't work out. Most of it is when I realise, I'm being too controlling, being too unreasonable and hot-headed that always result in recklessness, hurting someone which I never meant to hurt. It's always like this, I want to change. To be submissive, not take over the role of a man. Sometimes I just do it unknowingly and when I realise that, it's too late. The person leaves, finds another person and be happy with her. I don't blame him, not at all. I just wish I'll make the right choices in future, to change to be a better person, to stop all these so history won't repeat itself. Yeah, I know they hate me and don't miss a single shit about me. I understand why. I really do. 

I imagine the perfect relationship sometimes. Just thinking about how we would be BFF > Boyfriend kind of relationship. Holding hands and occasional pecks on the cheek, doing things we'd both enjoy, studying together, all that kind of stuff that best friends would do for each other. Taking the relationship slow and easy, getting to know each other better. To me, these kind of relationships are much better than just rushing into one without knowing much about each other. Most importantly, we'll be completely honest with each other, telling what we're thinking and feeling to make this work. Going to places we've never been to. It's just really imaginary and all but I think that somehow, someday, this is gonna work, gonna happen to each and everyone of us. It may not be perfect, but what's most important is that it'll work out, both of you, just striving together. 

"A heart is just like a home-for that someone special to live in. And only that someone."

"You don't need a million reasons to love someone."

dana
"If life was only as beautiful as looking through my camera lenses, I'll live this life happily."

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